I started this as a way to journal what is going on and help me get things off my chest. I always write to help me clear my mind. Not saying I can do it well, I just type as like I am telling a story. Hopefully here I can vent, rant, cry and jump for joy! Also, it will help remind me where I started on this scary road to being a Mother!
Let me just catch you up on things going on so far....
My Husband and I have been trying to start our new lil family for about a year now with no luck. Frustrating frustrating frustrating.... After about a year of peeing on sticks, getting hopes up, having hopes crashed, and starting all over again the next month, we decided to see why we haven't been able to do this on our own.
We met with a RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist) and she got us into testing immediately, which really made me happy. One of my fears was us going and being put off a whole other month to get appointments for testing and what not so I was happy with the immediate jump in.
I had an ultrasound and everything looked good. She could see my lining was good, no cysts, I have plenty of Follies and she could tell both ovaries were hard at work.
So one test down, everything clear and normal, this is good...
I got in for blood work on the day after Thanksgiving and we have to wait for the results from my RE.
Hubbs went in for his sperm analysis on the same day I had my HSG and then we waited for results. My HSG went fine it hurt a little more than I thought it would and they had to run the catheter twice because the first one, the balloon busted. As I get off the table she warned me I had some bleeding but not to be alarmed it was only minor, but then I look down and it looked like someone hacked into me or something. I had allot of bleeding after that for the next day and some cramping but nothing that was major. The radiologist came in and said everything looked fine and flowing beautifully... I had spill on both sides and no blockages... Relief was what came over me almost immediately.
Four test down, the ones we have gotten results back on are clear and normal, this is even better...
When I called for my appiontment to get the resulst the next available wasn't until that following Monday which was fine. I mean, we have waited a whole year what's one more weekend going to hurt?
We go to the appointment and I feel like I am walking the death march. I am so scared that they are just going to say "Sorry no go for you!!!" With all my test coming back normal I was frustrated and yet relieved at the same time. I kept telling myself "Well everything is allright with me physically, so It has to be something up with my hormones". Which for me was fine, those can be adjusted with meds. I was never really worried about my husband since he has a son from a previous marriage. We both assumed he was fine and the problem then inlaid with me. My step-son is now six years old and looks just like his daddy!
So she goes over my BW and tells me all my numbers are fine and where they all should be and normal, again, relieved... Then she gets to my DH test and we find out his numbers are good however the quality isn't what they should be. They are miss-shaped. The normal is 4% and his was in the 2%. She said this is low but nothing that really should be a defining diagnosis. She then put our diagnosis as Unexplained Infertility.
So we start making a plan of action. I am to start taking Clomid and then come in and do an IUI. I finally feel like we have a direction we are going in and feel like we are making progress. I was too late for this cycle since the day of the appointment I had already had my LH surge and should have ovulated the next day. So we get all the information and here we wait for my next cycle to start. Which should be right before Christmas!
I am blessed to have some good insurance because from what I am understanding everything is covered at 50%. I have a call into the office to talk to my Financial Adviser and see how much we will be out of pocket up front with this first cycle. Being its so close to Christmas and money is tight right now we discussed skipping this cycle and starting fresh in the end of January.
We shall see....